當我意識到這點我突然無助了起來，我把那本畫冊又翻了出來。可是我卻不知道如何去處理它。此時這本畫冊像一個恐怖的妖魔在我面前獰笑着，而我就這樣無可奈何的與它對視。
我像瘋了一樣把這本畫冊扯碎，可當我看到一地的碎片時，想到這是你留給我唯一的紀念時，我又倒在地上，哭了起來。
還是失去了這樣的紀念。
就像E.說的，這個世界全都是假的。
全部都是。
我書寫了這麼久的文字，編造了那麼多的劇情，我不知道最後我的結局将是什麼。想到這我突然又再次恐懼了起來。
是不是我們所有的生命，也在一支無形的筆下被人書寫着？我們的喜怒哀懼，我們的生老病死。
我們的一切。
……
我調整了一下情緒，繼續走了上舞台。E.依舊讓我唱。我用我已經沙啞疼痛的嗓子唱那首《die trying 》。
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I\'m naked and violent
This is the first day of my life
Finish last at the staring line
I live through my friends who are barely there
And I love how you
You look out for me and I love you
I live through friends who are barely there
I\'m naked and violent
An emotional wreck
Yeah, Yeah
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
Yeah c\'mon
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
Is this the last day of my life
I try so hard to hold on tight
As I live through friends who are barely here
You think you\'re ready
Yeah, I think I\'m ready now
You think you\'re ready
Yeah, I think I\'m ready now
You think you\'re ready
Well, then c\'mon, c\'mon let\'s dance
Yeah, Yeah
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
Yeah c\'mon
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
You think you\'re ready
I think I\'m ready, yeah
You think you\'re ready C\'mon
You think you\'re ready
I think I\'m ready, yeah
You think you\'re ready
Well, then c\'mon, c\'mon let\'s dance
Yeah, Yeah
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
Yeah c\'mon
I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead
You can\'t stop me yet
You can\'t stop me yet
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我感覺自己像隻野獸，我瞪着我發紅的雙眼怒視着下面，傲慢的唱着這首歌。
……
一切都無法回去。
一切都已結束。
那個我們走失的季節，早已被雨沖的不知去向。
請，不要，再去尋找。
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